Ok, finally after a loooong day (& wait), i got to see a doc. The pain is really killing me. So today whole day at home, i did nothing useful! Ironing, washing, packing, all NOT DONE! Planned to do baking today but too bad. I wasn't allowed to do anything. No appetite to eat anything as well.

Baby was NOT FREE to bring me to the doc, so i gt to wait till he finish work (at 6pm), jus as expected delayed till 7+pm he reached my house. Pain is terrible enough already and i tink my whole life will be wasted on waiting, waiting and waiting!

We finally started our snail journey to Marine Parade. No parking everywhere, and bloody idiots stopping halfway, loading, unloading people! So finally Baby decided to park in Parkway. so we find find find, the journey, the coughing, the everything makes me feel lik dying. While waiting for parking lots, i got crazy, i started to cry. Pain is terrible, its killing me. Coughing makes me feel lik dying, stomach is pain from the coughing, ears are pain from the coughing. I know it will be a long wait for parking coz there is another car waiting for lots. Then finally, one of the cars is leaving! The car(waiting for lots), suddenly drove off. (Must cry, then god will feel sorry and make a pathway for me eh?) So we happily park and walk to clinic. Reach clinic at abt 8+pm? sigh, dun dare to see the time. (as I said, my life is full of waiting) During the journey, i had a headache. Just as I guess, when the nurse took my temperatue - I had a fever. :(So I went in to see my favourite doc. Same old sickness - tonsils infection, swelling, thats why i had fever. He said its like Feb 2007 (wat happened at that time?) when I caught tonsils infection too. So he gave me 2 medicine - 1 is antibiotic(same one which I took at Mt E), 1 is for the infection. I ask for a cough syrup to stand by. Total S$64. Baby got a shock. -_- see how stingy.
sigh. Baby, can you just put 100% of concentration when doing things? Simple things like looking for something, seems to be so difficult for you? why? Baby, I dunno how long can I be around you to help you. I am not saying you are stupid. But i just feel tired. You force me to work, so i work. see now i am tired, i dun have energy to help you further. I mean it.

Please god, please. Everyone wants me to work. So i work already. Then why must you make me fall sick? Or is it you dun wan me to work? Just tell me in my dreams, i will be glad to quit. Please take away my illness, PLEASE! I just wan to peacefully work work & work, do you understand? Since you let me find a job so quickly, then why are you in any way making things difficult for me? I am just so pissed with my life!