I HATE MY DAY!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Today is such a day of sian-ness!!!! Everything just pissed me off so badly!!! I want to throw away my hps! So frustrated.... Buy present also frustrated... Work also frustrated... Go home also frustrated... Everything also frustrated... So stressful... Why can't everything just go according to what I've planned / want??? (well... if not it won't be called life - as life sucks badly)
Morning when I woke up and thought that I can enjoy myself after work - going shopping. After mid-day, things start to go wrong... Disappointed, sad, angry, stress etc...
Was out shopping after work and my hp has no reception and when I reached home, mum asked why I didn't on my hp (sounds as if its my fault again)... ARGH! She wanted to tell me to buy an airpot.... Finally I can announce that the airpot is totally spoilt... YAY!!!!!!!
After I moved in to this place, everything started breaking down... OMG!!!! Can I just pull someone and scream at him/her before killing him/her?! I just need to kill someone to vent my frustrations!
Dec: Floor tiles
Jan/Feb: Fan
March/Apr: Power Plug, aircon, hair dryer...
Whats more to come? Sigh.. I am tired.... Back to thinking what and why am i living for? to earn money to replace the F*ing things that has broke down in the house???
Everyday I have to live my life in misery. Always, at a certain time of the night, this miserable feeling will come back to haunt me...
I still feel being not able to do things the way I wanted to. I dunno why :(
I should have control/say/freedom over my own decisions right? But why it always dun seem the case?
Sometimes I wish I can die in my sleep (but it seems lik I have so many ungranted wishes) or being murdered by somebody? Maybe I will be happier that way....
I HATE MY LIFE - I HATE MYSELF
