Last night I was on the line with BB and on msn at the same time. He asked whether i chatting with kelvin. i said no. I was chatting with Ah Fang last night. He asked me whether is Kelvin online, I said no. He asked a number of times... I dun monitor who is online, who is not. I online is to surf websites, check emails, surf blogs, facebook... I guess last night we tried very hard nt to quarrel. (i prefer quarreling at home then at work.)
BB say i din put in effort to forget kel. I said, how to forget when my new relationship (with BB) is worse than my previous one. :(

This morning, I told him 8.30am we go pantry. I was late for 4 mins. When BB chatted me, i walked over to his desk, at that time i was settling this ang mo case. then i THOUGHT he showed a black face. So i was rather pissed. i put a paper under his headset and went pantry. After we come out, I took the paper and his headset dropped on the floor.

When I went back to my desk, he chatted me.

"Can you please dun for no reason get pissed off with me... for no reason u walk here then ask me 'why? u angry with me for being late 2 mins ah?' i not giving u a face why u think too much. seriously over paranoid. come on la i tell you now, right at this moment. I wasn't angry at all. u need me to walk over to ur desk and explain to u? then u get it in ur mind? "

I said no need. he said "good , so pls stop ur nonsense. dun come & quarrel with me for no good reason, get it? understand or nt? then dun come and throw my things on the floor ok? please.. my headset is innocent. "

I told him I did not purposely throw on the floor. I explained I took the paper and happen that the headset is on it.

He said "yes i know. doesn't feel gd to be told off for sth u din do on purpose right?"

i say ok nvm.

he said "SO PLEASE STOP ASSUMING I AM ANGRY. WHEN I AM NOT. "
i say ok i nv assume already.

he said "and u still dare to come back and chat me what u hate pantry and lunch time stop it ok? u start all these. i play on. u getting mad at me. "

i say maybe we shld nt go lunch tog or go home tog. he said "wan go home with kelvin is it?" i asked why him again? he said "why him ah? ask urself lor. i tell u what.. one day i will hunt him down and beat the fuck out of him.. i swear to god i will do it. u hide things frm me and think i will not find out.. try harder. i am not as stupid as u think i am. "

i said i gt sms with kel, kel gave me morning calls. its nt i hide frm BB. he said "u know urself what else. jus mark my words la... i can afford to search the whole telok blangah to look for him one. "

Thinking of the above, and those checking of my hp when I am out shopping with him, when i leave my bag with him i go toilet.. I feel depressed...

The first day I brought my lappy to work, darling scolded me why am i still clinging on - so unlike me. :( nearly cried when darling scold me... she is right. I had been asking myself too... I dunno why am I still clingling on too? -_-