V I V I E N N E'S D I A R Y
VIVIENNE


there's nothing wrong with my name. If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Loving It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.





I love HL Milk.
I love Soya Bean Drink.
I love Beancurd.
I love Ice Cream.
I love Singing.
I love Manicure & Pedicure.
I love Make Up.
I love Taking Pictures.
I love Buffet.
I love Parties.
I love Sleeping.
I love Travelling.
I love Royce Chocolate.
I love Perfumes.
I love KOI Bubble Tea.
I love Tian Tang aka Heaven aka 6670.
I love Shopping.
Never ending shopping.
That's coz...
I'm ME.
A crazy ME.
3rd July 2009 Friday =(
Friday, July 3, 2009

Today I feel so tired (dunno is it the gym session yesterday that causes me to be so tired)... I took my first call, I cannot even speak properly, I chatted him on the computer that I am tired...
Then he say dun go gym anymore. I say i know he dun like me to go gym (becoz he always wait for me during my gym sessions) , but after a few sessions of gym will be ok liao. Then i forget another thing that i said, made him say that I am assuming things myself. He copied and pasted the sentences tat I said and tell me to stop assuming.. I am so tired and he wants to do this again. So we quarrelled a few more sentences, I logged out from the chatting system. I am really tired and supervisors keep chatting me to ans call ans call (and he compared me to him yesterday - what is mine compared to his work yesterday - fine fine fine)

Then he has no way to chat me, he walked over to my seat and ask i got see his chats and ask why din i reply???!!! -_- I replied him loudly. I am so tired. he wants to quarrel with me on chat, and yet still walk over and ask me to reply his chat ?! -_-

So he walked away I logged in, and we continued with the quarrels... Then I say lets break up, he replied 'so u wan to go bk to kelvin?' so he starts assuming (if i confrnt him on his assumption, he will say he is treating me bk like how i treat him again) OMG!!! I really cannot take it anymore, i threw my mouse, my headset and cried. Wendy walk over and comfort me... I told her I cannot take it anymore and want to take MC (but i LS the night before too, tummy nt well). So i logged off again, and pack my stuff preparing to leave the office. So i took my bag and leave (have to pass by his seat) and i saw him standing up seems lik abt to walk over to my desk again but when he saw me, he sat down. I passed by him, i think i have to say bye to him or else he will quarrel with me again. Then he use those kind of buey song attitude to ask where am i going n stuff.

I really could not take it anymore. Anyone wants to quarrel with me, please come after office hours, and pls queue up as well ok? I only accept quarrels on every Wednesdays and Thursdays between 7pm to 10pm. Other than that LEAVE ME ALONE. Its free of charge for now, in future if business is better, there will be charges :) Cheers...

I walked to Paragon to see the doc, i teared all the way and upon reaching the clinic, it beame running nose and I kept sneezing as well. Had 37deg Cel temperature.. How i wish it was higher...


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Left clinic and sms some of my friends asking them who is off/on leave today so that I can meet them as I dun wan to go home so early, I will keep thinking of things to make myself more depressed... =(
Luckily Fang is on leave today and she gt nothing on! So i meet her at Tampines and went for lunch at Manpuku!

(BELOW) My Udon...
(Below) we shared a pork toji...

(BELOW) Fang ate Ramen.. YUMMY!
(BELOW) They have banana caramel tart which i wanted to eat so much but i ordered mango tart to share with fang ;p

(BELOW) And fang's blue coral soda (syrup a bit too much)
Then fang went for her dental appointment at Bedok... So i went home for a while, to rest... Feel really so sleepy and drowsy in front of my lappy in the afternoon :(

Then fang called me, and I meet her at EP for our pedicure session.. heeee!!!
During our pedicure session, he called. and ask if we r meeting for dinner. i say no coz i meeting fang for dinner.

Then we went to whitesands for a walk and dinner...
although really nothing much to shop about la...

We ate dinner at Xin Wang HK Cafe...
I ate this (BELOW) disappointing Roasted Duck Ramen...
(BELOW) Fang ate Chicken chop (taste so so)
And she told me there is cup walker!!! Something i wanted to try so long ago... so we din order any drinks in HK cafe... Was so thirsty after dinner, we proceed str to Cup Walker to get a honeydew milk tea each (BELOW).
Not too bad but I think I still prefer KOI. :) Although variety is not as much as Cup Walker.
(BELOW) Bought this spongebob pouch at EP, although i dunno what to put but i jus buy it. :X
(BELOW) I bought this fan at whitesands.. Something that i wanted to buy so long ago... Finally went to buy.. hahah YIPPEE!!!
Anyway, gal (ah fang), thank you so much for accompanying me today :) I am really touched. It really took my mind off the frustrations and so on that was in me earlier on... :)

I reached home, he called me and ask me why din i sms him the whole day ... -_- he din sms me as well. so why ask me that question? I am puzzled. and he ask me why i sound different... i tink his memory suddenly today is worse than mine. I think he forgotten what happened in the morning... what happened in the morning might not be our worst quarrels... but it really added on to my limt and its overflowing.

Now at 12.19am (4th Jul) , I am still talking to him on msn coz i know if i ans his call I will have hell tonite... he says i din put in my 100% ... he says his mum can put aside everything but why cant i. he says i still avoids his family... How am i suppose to put aside everything when I am the main character in this whole pic and the mum is only an outsider... The things that she had done in feb (i know its out of concern for her son) but had hurt me too much and i was quite shocked and till nw i am still shocked. I see her in her wkplace, i picture her talking to my friends'mum... talking abt me, and this thought is driving me crazy.... crazy... hw am i going to accept...

Every monring before i leave the house i prayed to Guangyin, i prayed that i will have a quarrel free day but things are getting worse day by day... The quarrels, the hatred increased day by day... on the other hand the love decreases as time goes by...



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