SUPER BAD MOOD

Nowadays, really in a super duper bad mood!
I dunno why, dun ask me.
I may be due to my work - quarrels with customers...
I guess so long as I am in customer service line, quarrels are a daily thing...
And I am sick & tired of it...
But never mind, I know i'm leaving soon.
Working in this company makes me a changed person... Good or bad, I dunno.
But for one thing I know, whatever shit I had, or whatever I am unhappy about with the customers, i will talk back to them in a nice tone (sometimes), suan-ing them and I feel great!
But anyway, I am still very sick of quarrels although this 1 year plus here should make me feel used to it... But i still feel sick of it.. seriously... no choice, i have to pray double as hard, before going out to work, so that I will not quarrel that badly daily... *tired*

And everyday i reach home i feel so super sian.. really sian.. but i dunno dunno hw to describe that kind of sian-ness... Fri night, went drinking with Wendy they all.. then reached home 5am, mum blamed me for making her not sleeping the whole night. Then i went to sleep, woke up noon time on sat, then she start the shit by saying making her not slping the whole night... causing her to have headache. I wanted to slp more, but i forced myself to get up, bathed and go out. coz I couldnt bear to listen to her for another second... I feel frustrated.... cant she let me rest?? she cannot understand at home, everyday i reach home, i proceed to sit at one corner of the room and use lappy, if not i will be in toilet bathing or shitting... use lappy then sleep. thats all... finalky when i get to go out late, she blamed me... what she want me to do, really want me to sit at tat corner (like what i am doing nw) and use lappy. butt also will pain, back will also ache one. I really hate to stay at home, seriously.... tired also cannot rest...
I just wanna shout.. shout... shout....

And this sickening bitch is really pissing me off so so so badly... seriously I never do anything to her, but every sentence she said to me/every conversation she had with me, must have personal attack one leh. why ah? can tell me? I always tell myself she is just plain jealous... but somehow becoz i am vivienne... so i really cannt just listen already then forget it because it always happen to every conversation we had. and I had already minimised every chance to talk to her already. when she is approaching i will act busy, i will do other other things so that i will never get to speak to her, if not it will start again.. But she just had to say me leh... I really feel lik spitting in her face... Last time i used to fight with Lin, now i feel like doing that to her lor. pull her hair until she become botak! PUI! so sickening really... she has to step on my tail even i tried to avoid. very sickening... and yes, evon say these kind of sickening ppl normally are attached if not, married. why ah? blind guys are everywhere, or rather.... like what miza said, all guys are not good, therefore not good gal + not good guy = relationship/love...

Anyway BITCH, I am proud of what I have...
The body that you have is like my shit....
Shut up! and talk to me when you have Cup D.. Thank you and leave me alone...